My lifting/Metformin balance

After a year on 2,000 mg of Metformin, I realized that I could not lift on this dosage.  Aside from stomach upset, the main side effect I’ve noticed from Metformin is loss of appetite.  I wasn’t eating enough at all, I was averaging less than 1,000 calories a day.  On days that I had really eaten very little and happened to have the opportunity, I would sometimes binge on something sweet just to get my calories up.  I probably did this once every few weeks. 

The lack of appetite also gradually manifested in a sense of disgust over meat.  This is not me.  The very idea of chicken made me want to gag – I previously had been amazed at how it didn’t seem to be possible for me to get sick of eating chicken.  I was even starting to get grossed out over fish when I finally realized that something had to change.  I was eating too little in general, getting almost no protein, and getting so little magnesium that I’d get dizzy squatting down to pet my cat.  I’d essentially given up on lower body lifting because I constantly felt like I was going to black out.

I started cutting back to one pill in the morning and two in the evening.  I added in a single berberine pill in the morning and one in the evening based on some research I’d done and some advice from a nutritionist friend.  I’ve been doing this for several months now.  My appetite has increased enough that I don’t feel like I’m torturing myself to eat two meals a day.  I can eat meat again, even chicken.  I’m not quite up to where I should be in daily protein, but I’m getting better about it all the time.  I’m now starting to believe that the only thing Metformin does for me with regard to weight loss is to make me not want to eat.

I’m strong enough to lift again.  I can do a full Starting Strength workout without getting super dizzy at light weights.  I’ve got a long way to go to regain my former strength.  This now feels like something that will take time, rather than something that is impossible.  It feels wonderful to be making constant gains again, rather than helplessly watching the weights go down.

My year on 2,000 mg Metformin now feels like a waste of time.  I lost a *lot* of strength.  I lost about 3 pounds.  My work sometimes suffered when my stomach upset was really bad.  Some of my self-esteem dropped with my strength.  Here’s hoping for a better year.  I’m not going to let that happen again.

On Thinning Hair

In the fall of 2010, I finally got fed up with my rapidly thinning hair.  I shaved my head.

I LOVED it!

The good:

  • Really, really short showers.
  • Drying time was basically none.
  • I liked how it looked.
  • Wigs are super fun 🙂
  • I got a lot of compliments.  Some ended with, “I wish I could do something like that!”
  • I saved money on haircuts and hair products.  (I used a trimmer.)
  • I didn’t have to go through the mental hoops required every time I decide to dye away my grey hair.

The bad:

  • It was a lot colder than I thought.  Fall was a bad time to do this, I didn’t have a chance to get used to the body temp change before the outside temp dropped.
  • When I dressed up, I felt less formal than I do when I have longer hair.  This also goes for short hair.  I recognize that this is completely my deal.
  • A surprising number of men thought it would be ok to inform me that a bald head is unfeminine.

Neither good nor bad:

  • Shaving and buzzing really dark hair on pale skin looks pretty much the same.  After the first couple of times, I stopped literally shaving it and just set the clippers on the shortest setting.  Shaving does feel really nice, but it seemed silly to go to that extra effort and razor blade cost for a millimeter of hair.
  • Tango lead hair color preference by number of dances from most to least:
    • Red
    • Blond
    • Purple
    • Black
    • Brown
  • People who met me with a wig on would not recognize me if I wore a different wig or no wig the next time I saw them.

I eventually grew my hair back out.  Starting fresh, I used sulfate free shampoos and silicone free conditioners.  I didn’t start with the shampoo and conditioner until my hair was 2-3 inches long and started to feel like it needed it.  After a year of no cutting, I could get my hair to stay in a ponytail after a year of growth.  Curious what the growth pattern would look like, I didn’t cut it for 3 years.  It basically grew out in layers, the bottom part would hang down the lowest.  My hair was still thin, so I trimmed up that back part to make the length look fuller.

I went on spirolactone after about two years of growing my hair out.  Around the same time, I started following Curly Girl methods fairly seriously.  I stopped brushing my hair and went to only finger combing it in the shower.  My hair felt fuller, but I wasn’t sure which was the cause until recently when I had to go off the spirolactone.  After being off of it for a couple of weeks, my hair started falling out in gobs.  The end result is that it didn’t look good anymore at that length.  It was stringy.  When the curls did clump together, the end result was 5-6 nice big curls, big empty spots between them.  You could see my scalp clearly between the clumps.

I started playing with pin curls and finger waves, 40’s style.  My hair responded perfectly to this treatment.  It looked good, the fluff made it look thicker, but I wasn’t happy having to spend that much time getting hair that looked nice.

I found a local curly stylist and asked him to make my hair look good.  I explained the hormonal thing and let him know that for now it was going to stay thin.  He cut my hair into a long bob, saying it was more traditional and less extreme than a shorter cut.  He let me know that if I didn’t like the length, he’d cut it shorter in a month for free during my bang trim appointment.

I dyed my hair for a conference.  I’m about 50% grey.  The grey hairs are clear, so my hair looks a LOT thinner when it’s undyed.  The dying made it look fuller, but suddenly it wouldn’t curl normally.  I was unable to make my hair look good without pin curls.  This was actually a perfect length for a really nice pin curl style, but again, I wasn’t happy with the time sink that went into making my hair look anything but patchy and stringy.  It was also now too short to put into a ponytail.  On the last day of the conference, I wore my purple wig and got lots of compliments.

I went back to the stylist.  I asked him to cut it shorter.  I told him that if it still looked too thin to me that I would shave it off, so to do whatever he thought might make it look good.  He gave me an asymmetrical cut.  It’s now a long pixie on one side and a very short bob on the other, angled in the back.  It looks fuller than it did before, and I like this style.  Because it’s asymmetrical, it doesn’t obviously look patchy.  I can go to the gym and it usually stays out of the way.  I like it for now, but I have so many bad feelings around my hair right now that I don’t really think I’ll stay with it long-term.

The happiest I’ve ever been with my hair was when it was less than an inch long, and when it was long, a little thin, and curly.  Long and a little thin is not going to happen anytime soon.  I’m not sure how I feel about needing to take a pill everyday so that I can have hair that I like – it’s a weird feeling.